Friday, April 18, 2014

I MISS BEING IN LOVE

I miss that moment when you deliberately check that special someone if she has already eaten her breakfast, lunch, or dinner; you’re doing it not because it’s a common thing; you’re doing it because you do care for her. I miss that moment when you try to wake up early just to remind her to take her breakfast. Even if your sleeping hours will be put into compromise, but still you don’t bother as long as you can remind her that she should take her meal. I miss that moment when you try to finish your work early, or bunk classes (it’s no good, though; but it actually happens sometimes) just to spend lunch together. And that moment when you wait for her just to spend dinner together—even if you’re not hungry; what matters to you is the moment being with her, not the meal.

I miss that moment when you send that special someone home; no matter how far her home is, but still you want to send her because you want to assure her safety and to know that she’s just a doorstep away from her house before you leave. I miss that moment when you don’t give a damn how many public transports you may have to take, how many minutes or hours it costs you, or how many dreadful places you may pass by going back home; because all you care is spending precious moments with her.

I miss that moment when you go out with that special someone, not because you want to show to the world that you've got a girlfriend, but because you want to show to her how happy you are every time you’re together. And I miss that moment when people around you don't seem to exist because all you could see and feel is her.

I miss that moment when you can literally do things you never imagined you could do: that moment when you can make sophisticated, romantic hand-made presents for her, when you can artfully write her poems, when you can serenade her in public, when you can dress ridiculous outfits just to make her smile and laugh, and the like.

I miss that moment when you can talk about and share your plans, goals, and dreams in life with that special someone. I miss it when you visualize your future together, and when you let her feel that she’s one of the reasons you are working hard to have a better future.

I miss that moment when you see that special someone right after you when you wake up. I miss it when you think there’s nothing more wonderful in the morning than waking up next to her. And I miss starting the day when you are watching that someone's beautiful morning face while she’s still sleeping next to you.

And most of all, I miss that moment when you are “truly” in love: that moment when you are true to that special someone and to yourself; that moment when everything you feel for her is clear; that moment when the hands of certainty wipe out all the doubts you have; that moment when you couldn't ask for more than being with her; and that moment when you could say that the word “forever” means “her.”

My First Love

...because I can and will never forget her.

Whenever I think about my first love, I always feel an unexplainable sensation. It is like there is a dainty mechanism within me that produces all forms of happiness. She always makes me happy and is so sweet. She always kisses and hugs me. She never fails to remind me how important I am to her and never fails to let me know and feel that she loves me so much. She is the most wonderful and most fantastic woman I have ever known. She always supports me in whatever inclinations I have and pushes me to overcome every hardship in life I encounter. She has taught me how to stay positive and be able to see a silver lining in every gloomy moment in my life. She is the one who taught me that everything is going to be just fine and always tells me to always keep a smile on my face. She has taught me I should make the people in my life and people I encounter smile, laugh, and happy. She never gives up on me; no matter how many times I fail; whatever terrible things I had done; she always puts faith on me. She never judges me for my every wrongdoing; she trusts me. There is no woman in the world that can ever replace her in my heart. I am very thankful and grateful that God has given me such a wonderful woman; He has let this woman be the reason I am in this world now. And most of all, I am thankful and grateful that this woman has loved me since the day I was born. I so love my mom!